A lot of the time I find myself getting upset over stupid people and their stupid remarks. A lot of the time my husband just gives me a side ways look touches me on the shoulder and suggests that maybe I'm just being delicate I can't expect people to understand, he thinks I'm ridiculous for even thinking that they should at least try. I tried to tell him last night how upset I was that a friend of mine after I had plucked up the courage to actually go round her house had spent the whole time telling me how stressful looking for a school place was, it aseingly completely didn't enter her mind that it should have been me looking for a school place for b too. . I left knowing why I hadn't been in contact before and wasn't in a hurry to make contact again. Sometimes with the exception of other bereaved parents who have become like friends to me, I am alone in this. Alone, even with my husband.
In other news I have a job interview in a few weeks, I'm as nervous as hell
My husband used to get cross with me. He was dumbfounded that I cared what x or y had said, when he says, all he could think was that our daughter was gone... and there was I waffling on about some trivial shite.
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It is very lonely and isolating. Other people get wrapped up in their own problems, and few people can imagine how traumatic this loss is. They think you are over-it-by-now. I'm so sorry xx
I lost many friends when Eva died. Some quickly, some slowly. But I can honestly say I am better off without them now.
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