B

My gorgeous girl, just how, that's my only question just how can you not be here. How can I not touch you, how can I not here your giggle your cheeky 'how are you' how come your not here eating my chocolate buttons behind my back.  Why aren't your fingers in my cake mix.  Why can I only see your beautiful smile when I close my eyes?  Why aren't you jumping in puddles in the rain? Why all this pain? My darling girl if I could do that day again, I love you

Looking for the similar

OnApril 22 Rhys at 10 months took his first few tentative steps unadded, we eventually got it on film and just love watching it, the little wobble the big smile the masses of excited dribble.this morning on my Facebook page I found a similar video of B taking her first few steps, it seemed almost funny to me that she too took her first steps in April.

When I was pregnant with Rhys I knew one thing amongst all the uncertainty, he had to be his own person he was in no way a replacement. Yet they are so similar, the toothy grin he gives me, the way he spits fruit out but adores even the smallest amput of cake. His facial expressions his stubbornness his laugh his sense of humour, he is such his own person but yet so similar. Some times those similarities sooth me sometimes they cut my heart like a knife